ME & OCD

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So, today I can't get a rhythm out of my head. There is a song to it as well, and I don't know why I have to step to this annoying and repetitious song. *allow 14 seconds while I germ gell, please* Okay, so here goes; 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 more. That's it. That's the song. I've got the rythm of the day.
I was thinking yesterday how fun it would be to perform stand-up at a nursing home. I mean, I'm not sure just how much you could get by with but it would be fun to find out. I know they could appreciate pee jokes, and maybe some geriatric humping jokes would go over pretty well. I've quite a lot of comedy collected in journals so I may just see what I can do about it. Hopefully I won't shock them to death, but one laugh is better than none, right?
I like to pretend that I'm whatever race is being talked about in a group of people. Especially if it is starting to go in a racist conversation. I've told people once that my dad came out of his bedroom drunk and asked, "What the hell are all these mexicans doing walking around my house?" to which I answered " um, we're your ofspring".....usually those about to talk crap about latino/a's change their direction. *i'm not latina, but it's still fun to freak people out*
I have been scared of my saliva this week. I've been spitting it out in a white cup with paper towel wadded up and shoved in there. I'm not sure exactly how long this fear will stay with me but I'm sure it started over wanting to loose weight. I don't know how much spit I was swallowing a day and how much it was contributing to my weight, but I figured if I cut that out I should see some result.
My doctor has upped all of my meds and I am numb from the waist down. I'm not on any pain medication, just psych med cocktail. It's so bad I would actually watch a porno for the story line. I am so numb I can't feel myself wipe. This is sad because I am only 38 and I should be getting some ass quite often. I feel sorry for anyone who wants to sleep with me now. I believe I am the worst lay of all times now.
I'm letting my forearm hair grow. I have shaved it since I was a teen but my mother talked me into letting it grow back in and stop shaving. I am on day 11 and I have to say, it's not too bad yet. They don't know it, but i'm also letting my leg hairs grow *hehe*. I shave everything else though. I wish I would have started taking pictures of the daily transformation but I didn't think about it until it was too late.